April Inspires

NaPoWriMo has begun! I will not be writing a poem everyday this year, but rather writing when I feel inspired. I want this April to be a challenge in a unique way so instead of doing the daily thing, I am charging myself with the task of writing about the things that scare me the most. It is not intended to be sad, scary or heartbreaking (some of the things that scare me are actually really beautiful... like being pregnant!) but rather to get a little more personal than I usually do in my writing. To scare myself with honesty perhaps (and hopefully get something good out of it). So, here goes

VERTIGO I

Equilibrium is a daydream

I woke from years ago.

Mistook the sky for ground and

learned to walk under water

They don’t know about my dizzy.

About this whirling ocean I call breathing,

hurricane eye of a girl.

Negotiating commutes for carousel rides

Horizon obstacle course days

that leave me crawling

just to keep the skin from bursting open.

Too often, I’ve gotten a glimpse of this world

as it begins to unravel

Smoked this singed wire sparkplug of a brain

just hoping to suck the balance out.

But I don’t know life without this tilting

This sky without fire.

My sky bleeds like new tattoos

I am freshly inked and floating

Spinning three long years

hoping for a small glimpse of texture

For the fabric that once kissed

my cheek to sleep at night and

reminded me how beautiful

the world was when

it just stood still.