NaPoWriMo has begun! I will not be writing a poem everyday this year, but rather writing when I feel inspired. I want this April to be a challenge in a unique way so instead of doing the daily thing, I am charging myself with the task of writing about the things that scare me the most. It is not intended to be sad, scary or heartbreaking (some of the things that scare me are actually really beautiful... like being pregnant!) but rather to get a little more personal than I usually do in my writing. To scare myself with honesty perhaps (and hopefully get something good out of it). So, here goes
VERTIGO I
Equilibrium is a daydream
I woke from years ago.
Mistook the sky for ground and
learned to walk under water
They don’t know about my dizzy.
About this whirling ocean I call breathing,
hurricane eye of a girl.
Negotiating commutes for carousel rides
Horizon obstacle course days
that leave me crawling
just to keep the skin from bursting open.
Too often, I’ve gotten a glimpse of this world
as it begins to unravel
Smoked this singed wire sparkplug of a brain
just hoping to suck the balance out.
But I don’t know life without this tilting
This sky without fire.
My sky bleeds like new tattoos
I am freshly inked and floating
Spinning three long years
hoping for a small glimpse of texture
For the fabric that once kissed
my cheek to sleep at night and
reminded me how beautiful
the world was when
it just stood still.
